Okay,
my days have just gone down into the pits again.
wait, they are already in the pits D:
i'm not complaining,
i'm just upset D:
I am seriously considering making my blog private,
only open to close friends and maybe family?
i don't know, honestly.
my head's in a mess.
to quit or not to quit.
i can make a proclamation NOW.
THE ONLY THING I HAVE EVER FELL SO HARD FOR IS BADMINTON.
I LOVE BADMINTON AND I WILL NEVER QUIT IT.
<3
Mama's making me quit cos my grades are f!!king crap.
and that's true.
but, i can't let it go.
i didn't get all A1s.
i couldn't ):
no matter how much i've tried.
My grades are not up to it.
maybe i didn't study hard enough?
maybe i have been playing too much?
maybe i haven't been focused?
but i don't wish for ANYONE to blame it on badminton.
yes, training is HECTIC,
i admit, but i love every bit of it.
Mama says i HAVE TO agree to drop it.
WHAT IF I SAY I DON'T FREAKIN' AGREE?
WHAT IF I SAY I DON'T WANT TO QUIT?
ARE YOU GOING TO JUST PUT ME DOWN MORE?
do it if you must, cos i guess you will always get things your way.
good on you then.
of course,
the thinking of quitting and after mama's scolding and endless lectures,
and me just holding back all my emotions,
yup. i cried again.
don't tell me you wouldn't.
it just feels like losing all that you ever have,
y'know, like losing a family member or close friend.
(when i say lose, i meant them passing on)
Well.. Thank God for Bryan's shower method.
When you feel like crying so hard,
GO TAKE A SHOWER.
surprisingly, it works.
let the warm water flow down your cheeks,
taste the tinge of salt in them,
you can't even tell,
if they were ever tears you've shed,
or just the water pouring down.
Badminton is my love.
My teammates are the people who make me smile.
Trainings are my favourite past-time.
tell me, should i quit or should i not?
PS: PLEASE DO NOT REMIND ME THAT MY MAMA CARES FOR MY WELL-BEING COS I ALREADY KNOW THAT. I FREAKING KNOW THAT. I DON'T NEED TO BE REMINDED.
The best thing is that you don't comment so much on this post.
Thank you.