Capture your smile,

Friday, August 31, 2007

Last day of training was today!):
sad luh.
well.. took loads of photos with the team!
& loads with EMMANUELLEchn too!!
HAHA. (X i look like a total retard in those pics!/:
you look great! so photogenic!(:

LOL. can't upload the pics.
my damn com can't read my cam.
i will find a way to get it on.
(:

tomorrow's teacher's day.
& also..
nvm.

TAKE CARE!((:
LOVES<33

it's 12:55 PM now

Monday, August 27, 2007

changed the skin again.
hope you like it!(:
FONT COLOUR OF SOME POST=SCREWED!/:

it's 4:02 PM now

Friday, August 24, 2007

i don't know how long you will wait;
i cannot turn things back to what they were;
everything's different now;
we lead seperate lives;
it's impossible for you to wait;
i am not sure how much longer i can hold on;
i might just slip;
and fall;
and you may never catch me.

it's 10:24 PM now

i've had enough of this fake smile on my face;
i only showed who i am really not;
i hate the fact that i have to put on this front;
i feel fake;
i feel that i am not me;
i have hidden myself beneath the shadows;
i hide all my pain;
i am sick&tired;
i cannot stop running;
i don't want to cry;
i am confused;
just too much is jammed into my mind;
i can't think;
i am just going to sink down into the sand;
and disappear from this earth;
and fade away.

it's 10:07 PM now

Sunday, August 19, 2007

whoah.. so tired..
just came home from an extra long day.

was up at 6 this morning.
CROSS COUNTRY
i came in 20th. 16min 53sec.
Celia came in 21st. right after me!(:
Chermaine was 17th.
Michelle was 18th.
EMMANUELLEchn came in 3rd!
EMMANUELLEchn; dun be sad kaes? you may not have came in 1st, but there's always next year!(: JIA YOU!((: LOVES<33
what a pity..
YVONNE was sick!/:
so she couldn't come..
YVONNE; get well soon kaes? LOVES<33>

DRAGON BOATING (CURL) @ MARINA BAY FLOATING PLATFORM!(:
i was like super tried.
my legs were aching,
my arms had no strength.
all i felt like doing was to sleep.

then, it rained. /:
just when we were about to race.
aahhh.. so dao mei.
so the race was postponed to 1pm.
we grabbed our belongings,
then went to VIP lounge. s
o cool but quite cold.
cos got wet, then the room was air-conditioned.
but soon got used to it.

we spent like 3-4 hours in there.
there were so many performances(:
there was a balloon sculpturer,
a magician
& a face changer!(:
the magician did this 'disgusting' trick.
he swallowed a card, then spit it out again.
the card had EMMANUELLEchn name on it!(:

then the face change performance after lunch. the person was so cool!(:
it's like when you blink, he will change his face!
SINTHIYA! you were like so funny.
keep saying: OI! CHANGE FACE LAH! hahaXD you ROCK CHANTER&RAWKER!((:
LOVES<33>

THE RESULTS:
DUCKTOURS(my group) was 2nd in our catergory..
but so sad/:
we didn't win cos we lost out to FORMULA 1.
so close..
just beaten by a few secons!
if not we could have gotten 2nd!

it's so cool.
in uni, for any type of competitions,
you will get a free shirt,
a free singlet,
and the token of particitipation in a medal!(:
not like sec school.
we get a piece of paper which says:
THANK YOU FOR PARTICIPATING & MAKING THIS EVENT A SUCCESS!
then, the paper gets trashed. LOL.

CIP ended at 3.
headed for Si Ma Lu and Bugis.
met up with my ex-schoolmate, and also my tuition friend, YI XUAN.
she agreed to go with me!(:

then we went home to wash up,
before going back to Marina Bay Floating Platform to watch FIREWORKS!(:

the FIREWORKS was
B E A U T I F U L
it felt like we've been surrounded by an invisible wall;
a wall where the fireworks can only hit;
and a boom;
while my heart beat quickens;
it seems like the atmosphere was falling apart;
but it didn't feel like it was tragedy;
it felt more like everyone breaking free;
and soaring into the sky.

by the time we squeezed out of the crowd and took the mrt home, it was like 10 plus.
my mom picked us up and took us out to eat. (since we haven't eaten)
before sending Yi Xuan back home.
iloveyou; YI XUAN!(:
thanks for watching the fireworks with me!((:

reached home at about 12.30am.
so tired. /:

TAKE CARE!((:
LOVES<33

this feeling;

is not something you know;

it's the time when you felt everything was so perfect;

it's 4:06 PM now

Friday, August 17, 2007

HELLO!(:
just uploaded the song
YOUR GURDIAN ANGEL!<3

this one is for you EMMANUELLEchn!<33
LOVES<33
it's a pity you can't hear it! /:
well.. thanks for waiting for me for like 45min!(:
and thanks to YOUR SIS for letting me listen too!((:

SINTHIYA;
THE BABE;
THE CHANTER&ROCKER;
you musn't give up!(:
JIA YOU!
i miss you lots from training!(:
LOVES<33

and lots of LOVE to everyone else i know!(:
TAKE CARE!((:

LOVES<33

it's 9:47 PM now

Sunday, August 12, 2007

HELLO!(:
just changed my url..

if you want to relink.. you can! or else dun need to waste your time!(:
kaes..

TAKE CARE!((:
LOVES<33

it's 10:28 PM now

Saturday, August 11, 2007

what's the point of living;
when you cannot do anything right;
i have tried all i can;
but it doesn't seem to be of any use;
i have never been able to comfort you;
or cheer you up when you are down;
all i can do is cry for you in my sleep;
i feel worthless;
like i can't do a thing;
i want to be strong;
and not be a burden to you;
all i ever wnat now is to help you get back on your feet;
and spread your wings and fly again.

the useless me;

misses your smile;

it's 10:24 PM now

i feel pathetic;
i feel useless;
i feel weak;
i should just die;
i can't even make you smile;
i feel like crying;
and shouting out loud;
I JUST WANT TO JUMP INTO A DITCH AND DIE;
it's the end of me and my world.

weaken by doubts;

crying in my sleep;

it's 2:26 PM now

Friday, August 10, 2007

WHEE(:
aww.. just missed the date by one!
anyways.. i guess i will just wish SINGAPORE
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!(:

oh yes.. not forgetting to wish..
MADHU- HAPPY BELATED 13th BIRTHDAY!(:
hope you had a great day!((:

well.. thats all..
TAKE CARE!(:

LOVES<33

it's 10:49 PM now

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

HELLO!(:

doesn't seem to be much to post about..
TRAINING is going to END in TWO WEEKS time!):
aww.. so sad!)):
i really love training!

well.. it's for our own good so we can do well for final year!
6 A1s!!!
here i come!

the truth is what i seek;
i need to see it crystalize;
i am looking for courage;
to express what i truly feel about you.

WHEE!(:
that's all..
TAKE CARE!<3

the perfect words;

that don't just come out;

it's 10:30 PM now

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

i don't want to avoid you;
but i don't think i have a choice;
i really don't hate you;
but i know deep down inside you do;
i will just avoid you;
and pretend i never met you before.

just fade away and get out of my life;
i don't think you deserve to know me;
for god's sake;
i am a no good friend.

you will be hurt if you hold on to this friendship;;

let go and find a new friend;;

it's 8:28 PM now

Stuff are going HAYWIRED recently.. /:
i am like so moody this whole week...
it's like so many things are jammed into my head at one time.

i cannot think straight;
my thoughts are mixed up;
i cannot think;
i just want my mind to be cleared;
i seem to be falling;
i hate what i am today;
i hate what i've been;
i miss who i really am.

i feel like breaking down.
i want to scream out loud.
i am drowning in sorrow.
i want to know what i have done wrong.
i want forgiveness.
i want to be me.

i'm sorry;;

if i made you cry;;

cos i cannot stop crying in the inside;;

*shattered hearts and broken dreams*

it's 6:25 PM now