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Friday, October 17, 2008

i'm running away,
from everything i had ever known.

i am abandoning this blog.
but i'll leave it here.
so many fond memories.
and all my links.

Thank you all for reading.
Click! here :)
tag me for link and invitation.

Second-lastly,
Happy Birthday Mong Chin :)
Thanks for being such a great captain.

Lastly,
i love you.
and my friends, my family,
and i can never live without you :)

it's 10:27 PM now

Okay,
my days have just gone down into the pits again.
wait, they are already in the pits D:
i'm not complaining,
i'm just upset D:

I am seriously considering making my blog private,
only open to close friends and maybe family?
i don't know, honestly.

my head's in a mess.
to quit or not to quit.
i can make a proclamation NOW.
THE ONLY THING I HAVE EVER FELL SO HARD FOR IS BADMINTON.
I LOVE BADMINTON AND I WILL NEVER QUIT IT.
<3
Mama's making me quit cos my grades are f!!king crap.
and that's true.
but, i can't let it go.
i didn't get all A1s.
i couldn't ):
no matter how much i've tried.

My grades are not up to it.
maybe i didn't study hard enough?
maybe i have been playing too much?
maybe i haven't been focused?
but i don't wish for ANYONE to blame it on badminton.
yes, training is HECTIC,
i admit, but i love every bit of it.

Mama says i HAVE TO agree to drop it.
WHAT IF I SAY I DON'T FREAKIN' AGREE?
WHAT IF I SAY I DON'T WANT TO QUIT?
ARE YOU GOING TO JUST PUT ME DOWN MORE?
do it if you must, cos i guess you will always get things your way.
good on you then.

of course,
the thinking of quitting and after mama's scolding and endless lectures,
and me just holding back all my emotions,
yup. i cried again.
don't tell me you wouldn't.
it just feels like losing all that you ever have,
y'know, like losing a family member or close friend.
(when i say lose, i meant them passing on)

Well.. Thank God for Bryan's shower method.
When you feel like crying so hard,
GO TAKE A SHOWER.
surprisingly, it works.

let the warm water flow down your cheeks,
taste the tinge of salt in them,
you can't even tell,
if they were ever tears you've shed,
or just the water pouring down.

Badminton is my love.
My teammates are the people who make me smile.
Trainings are my favourite past-time.
tell me, should i quit or should i not?

PS: PLEASE DO NOT REMIND ME THAT MY MAMA CARES FOR MY WELL-BEING COS I ALREADY KNOW THAT. I FREAKING KNOW THAT. I DON'T NEED TO BE REMINDED.
The best thing is that you don't comment so much on this post.
Thank you.

it's 10:05 PM now

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

tell me something i don't know,
cos i really need to hear it now.

Exams scripts are back.
my marks are the worst.
contentment.
shit! that essay makes so much sense now -.-"

i shan't say my AWFUL grades ):
no A1s for me today ):
stuck in a shitty pit of 2 A2s and 1 B3.
lame shitzxz.
just my luck D:

Marissa is pissed.
shitty grades has just screwed her life.
where is a miracle when you need one?

tsktsk.
alrighttt.
i am advertising my shop again!
HAHAHAHA.

GET YOUR EARRINGS AT VERY CHEAP PRICES @

SEVENTEEN-STEPS.BS.COM! :D

oh wait, how could i forget,
Happy Birthday Lionel :D
i miss you and cell ):
meet up soon :)

i'm not kidding,
i need you,
badly.

it's 9:39 PM now

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

the lovely bubble bath :]

look at that massage bed! :]

lovely shower.

the sink is damn clean :D

HAHAHA look what i found,
Q&A book! :D

YAY!
MAMA SAVED THE DAY :D
my dear mama took me to the Spa with her today :]
super cool luh.

i was damn blur.
HAHAHAHA xD
first time in Spa..
what do you expect?
i didn't even know what to do, or where to go..
was like a lost soldier in the woods /:

the Hydrobath room is super cool :D
and i like the water cos it's so warm.
HAHAHAHA.
looks like some thousand-dollar-per-hotel-room-for-a-night kind of bathroom.
was super classy :]

teehee.
i am so not used to this kind of Diva life luhh ;X
but it was a great experience.
:)

after that went for lunch,
then back home and crashed on mama's bed to watch TV till 6. /:
feel so lazy! D:
not studying makes me feel so slack ):

so went to the park at 6.
met di, xiao di, James, Chase, Brad, Hemish and a lot more other people :)
passed them Halloween invitations
and also went round the neighbourhood to pass everyone else the invitations.
looks like i have the dubious honour of organising halloween again :X
LOLLOLLOL :D
it's on 31st of October,
anyone wants to come,
call me! :D

Then Leon came,
then they prank call Sandra with Di's phone.
tsktsk.
they asked for her number, then i asked them call my house :]

here is that super long prank call:

Leon: (in a funny voice) Hello, may i speak to Sandra please?
[my mama picked up the phone. LOL]
Mama: Erm. who is this?
Leon: Oh, this is Ben.
Mama: Huh? er. Which Ben?
Leon: er.. from the park!
Me: LOLLOLLOL!
Di: HAHAHAHAHA!
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[mama passes phone to Sandra]
Sandra: Hello?
Leon: (in an Australian accent) Hello Sandra, you know who is this?
Sandra: Benedict?
Leon: HAHAHA you believe i am Ben?
Sandra: er..
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[Sandra passes phone to Step-dad. LOLLOL!]
Step-dad: Hello? Who is this?
[this scared Leon! HAHAHA!]
Leon: err.. can i speak to Sandra please?
-------------------------------------------------------------
[Step-dad passes phone to Sandra]
Leon: (makes a weird face) OMG. YOUR DAD! SCARE ME SIA!
Me: HAHAHAHA SERVE YOU RIGHT! xP
------------------------------------------------------------
Leon: SANDRA!
Sandra: WHAT?
Leon: I want your guitar, 2 Mee Pok...
Di: (interrupts) your dog!
Me: Why do you want my dog? CRAZY!
Leon: (continues) okay, so i want your guitar, my mee pok and your dog.
Sandra: don't want luh! crazy!
Me: LOLLOLLOL.
Leon: argh! Ben wants to talk to you!
-----------------------------------------------------------
[passes phone to Di]
Di: Oi! where's my mee pok, huh? and your dog leh? quick bring him out!
Sandra: Huh? don't want.
Me: LOL. aiya, don't disturb my sis already luh!
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[Di passes phone back to Leon]
Leon: (in another weird voice) Sandra, i want your guitar!
Sandra: err.
Me: Aiya, dun scare her already luh!
Leon: your sister want to talk to you!
----------------------------------------------------------
[Leon passes phone to me]
Me: Sandra, it's Leon luh!
Leon: Oi! Why you tell her?! Damn you!
Me: HAHAHAHA! TOO BAD!
Leon: (snatches phone from me) okay luh okay luh. just bring your guitar out okay?
Sandra: ah? er. okay.
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~Conversation ended!~

& my super smart sis never showed up :D
she went to shower :]
pure genius my dear :)
HAHAHAHAHAHA xD
got stalked home by Di and Leon in the end -.-"
lame -______-"

at least it was eventful today!
oh, also, don't forget,
NEW STOCKS AVAILABLE ON MY BLOGSHOP!

it's 9:44 PM now

Monday, October 13, 2008

THE 50 QUESTION QUIZ
-found on Friendster again

1. Who was the last person you were texting to?

Bryan i think? LOL.

2. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?

That's my secret :D

3. Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?

Pretty normal i think?

4. Are you a morning person or a night person?

Both?

5. What would you do if a guy comes up to you with a rose?

I will be flattered i guess? and might blush if he's the one i like? i dunno luhhhh ;X

6. Are you there for your friends?

I hope so (in their point of view). But i will always be there when you need me :)

7. Are you a forgiving person?

Maybe. However, to gain back my trust especially after being stabbed in the back may be challenging, but i'll forgive you.

8. What is your favourite drink?

Lychee Ice Blend with Jelly :D but it's high in calories o.O

9. Are you dating the last person you were with?

HAHA nope.

10. Who is with you now?

My sisters are watching TV in the same room.

11. Anything bothering you now?

Maybe.

12. What are you listening to right now?

The annoying sound of the fan and the TV /:

13. The highlight of your week?

Back to school! but if anyone can drag me out of home, that will be appreciated :D

14. Who was the last person who teased u?

Gee, i forgot ;X too many people tease me O:

15. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?

Bryan :D

16. Do you like your mom?

Defintely. She's all i've got :]
i love you mama! <3

17. Who was the last person offer u a chocolate?

My mama :D

18. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?

Yeah, i think so. Some Hong Kong actress? LOL.

19. Name someone with the same birthday as you?

Carolyn Ng :]

20. Have you ever had a drunken night in Mexico?

Nope. never been to Mexico /:

21. What are your plans for de evening?

It's night already.

22. If you could move somewhere else, would you?

Maybe.

23. What does the seventh text in your inbox says ?

i can't remember. i don't have my phone now ;X
it was either from Chermaine or Bryan ;]

24. What's your favorite subject?

English. PE&MUSIC TOO! (if that counts)

25. Last thing that made you laugh out loud?

Bryan and Brendan fighting on the phone ;X

26. What do you think about love?

i'm a mess about it.
i just know that loving someone is not about loving the person in front of you,
but embracing both their past and their future.

27. Do you know if anyone likes you?

Sometimes.

28. What did you dream about last night?

You wouldn't want to know. It's embarassing. ;X

29. Do you want to be married right now?

HAHA no thank you :D

30. What were you doing at 2am this morning?

Sleeping.

31. What do you usually do first in the morning?

Roll out of bed :}

32. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?

Nope. Occassionally if i am up studying or sleeping in tuition ;X

33. What is making you smile now?

Talking to Chermaine.
But just a minute ago was Jon and Girlfriend bickiering xD

34. Are you looking forward to tomorrow?

Maybe. i sure hope so :]

35. How many different beverages have you had today?

hmm.. 4 i think. Plain water, Honey and two types of soup.

36. Any plans for today?

Had training.

37. What is in front of you?

The computer screen :}

38. What is your favorite chocolate?

All kinds. But the all-time favourite is Van Houten Hazelnut and Assortment Chocolate <3

39. Do you want children?

Yup, i want seven :D

40. What is on your mind now?

Hey best friend, can you take me to the beach tomorrow please?
HAHAHAHA!

41. Anything black on your right?

A black box full of black cables.

42. Are you expecting a phone call?

Kinda. i need Celia to call me to tell me what time training is tomorrow ;]

43. If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?

Neutral. It doesn't really make a difference to me ;X

44. What day is it today?

Monday.

45. Are you excited about this weekend?

Maybe, i guess.

46. Do people underestimate you?

Yeah, sometimes.

47. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?

My girlfriend and my best friend <3

48. Last thing you swore?

That our friendship would last forever :D

49. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?

HAHA YEAH :)

50. When did u last went to the mall?

Sunday :]

done~!

it's 10:47 PM now

keep shining for me, will you?

WOOHOO :D
my legs just got killed in training today ;X
they feel like jelly /:
but i still love traininggg :)
48 frog jumps ain't a lot,
but seemed like i did like 100 D:
must be cause haven't been training much ):

Think i'm going for junior's training tomorrow if they have :]
teehee.
still wanna crash that lecture :D
HAHAHAHAHA.
but i wanna go to the beach :)
bring back fond memories uh :]

okay.
i shall go hunting for another funny quiz ~!

it's 10:10 PM now

Leaving for training in 41 minutes :]
cooped up at home under 3 weeks grounding is so boring~!
using Mama's laptop now.
hushhush... she doesn't know i'm using it ;X
and i'm not suppose to O:

teehee.
alright, i regret not sneaking out of the house this morning.
wanted to go out with Bryan, Brendan and Co. before training :D
damn ittttt.
screw grounding D:

feel like sneaking out tomorrow to crash Kai Jun's lecture :]
teehee.
Business Informatics i think?
HAHAHAHAHA.
i'm really clueless about such stuff O:
HEHEHO! :)
really need to get out for some fresh airrrr. ;D

screw Marking Days.
you are depriving me of school D:
screw youuuuu :)

it's 1:19 PM now